I have spent my whole life making people think that I am doing exactly what they want me to do while secretly doing what I want to do. I have done this because I am afraid people will leave me emotionally if I tell them who I really am and what I really want. This is a survival tactic I learned long ago and it stays with me everyday.I want to slow/quiet that voice in my head that tells me, "no, that's not what they want" because I know today that who I am is enough. Who I am is worthy of emotional availability and belonging. If there are people who can't give me that, then there are people who can, too.