I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was ten years old. I know that’s intense. A lot of things were intense throughout my early childhood and adolescence. There was trauma, poor mental health, and addiction. It was not a cool time.
There were also tickle fights and lullabies. I have a lot of beautiful memories of my childhood. It took me a long time to see past the trauma.
In 2012, I seriously wounded myself during my last suicide attempt. It was pretty gross and traumatizing for everyone who saw me the next day. I entered psychiatric care and it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I am so grateful.
While I was in care, I made a decision not to kill myself. I needed to get cool with life on a philosophical level, and I did. There were a lot of wonderful people (fellow patients and the amazing people who worked there) that helped me come to terms with and take a new stance on existence.
As a result of over a decade of therapy, intensive care, and tons of reading, I have accumulated a lot of coping skills and tools I use to navigate life. I’m still learning and observing and questioning everything I see. I am constantly curious, and I explore those curiosities on this blog. I want to share what I have learned with you.
This is a collection of all of the things I have soaked up. This is a collage of different coping skills and lessons I have learned that might help you, too.
You will find gratitude, self-compassion, inner child connection, and mindfulness in every post. Unless I'm pissed about something and struggling. I want to share my authentic truth with you.
I have been writing since before I could write. I used to scribble in journals and pretend I was writing words. That’s where my writing started. This has always been the way I tether myself to this world.
I decided to share my writing with others after some encouragement from my mentors in 2012. Though it has been strange and difficult (I am so fucking neurotic), I really like sharing my writing. It’s freeing and invigorating.
Thank you for reading, I love sharing my story with you. I want you to share yours with me. This is human connection. I’m not sure what life is for, but I’m pretty sure humans are for each other.